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Working out with kids is definitely difficult, but I am bound to do it! I borrowed a friend’s video Power 90 a couple of weeks ago and was waiting for the kids to be asleep before doing it. Well, that never happened! By the time I was done waiting, there were too many other pressing items around the house and I never got to work out! Today, though, I decided to make it a game with my daughter and we did the workout together! So much fun! She loved that I was kicking, punching, jumping and running! Those are all her favorite activities and she was so motivating. In fact, when I had to pause the video (3 times… boy it’s tough!) she kept saying “Turn on, Mommy. Again, Mommy”. LOL The only thing that was difficult was when I was doing my abs on the floor. She wanted to wrestle and hug and climb all over me! It’s a good thing that part is only 4 minutes long! I am so glad that I took the time to work out today. I feel great!! I am actually really surprised at how good I feel. It was so tough, but I am glad I did it!

My way works for me. I’m still doing what I did last time I lost weight and it’s coming off again. Not as quickly as I’d like but it’s coming off. The best part is that this is something I can actually live with! All I’m doing is being careful of what I am eating. I am still having my treats when I need them, but I’m trying to either have a small portion, or nothing. The other thing that’s working is that I am letting myself splurge on great tasting items, every once in a while. I know this is all simple things that everyone says works, but I am still so surprised that it works for me, too!

Tonight my friend is supposed to come over and we are going to start the “Power 90″ DVDS that I borrowed. I need to make sure that I do the video whether Stacey comes over or not. I am tired, I would rather go to sleep when my kids go to bed, but I know I need to do this video. I’d like to say I’m looking forward to it, but really, I’m not. I’m not a big exercise person. I think I look like an idiot when I exercise and it’s just not fun. Still, if I really want to get this weight off, I know I need to exercise more.

I can’t wait for Spring. It will be so nice to get outside with the kids, to go for walks, to just run around and play. Enough with the snow, enough with the cold.I’m starting to go stir crazy. I also hate having to take forever getting us ready to go because we have so many layers to put on. It will be nice when we can just get shoes on and go! Yay! It has to come soon, right???

hmmm… odd… I just tried to post this and it didn’t show up! I hope it works this time.

My children are waking up in shifts throughout the night meaning that I am up for hours every night. It’s getting exhausting. My body hurts, my head hurts, my emotions are wacky and I’ve lost my motivation to do anything but eat and sleep. My treadmill is currently covered in all of our office crap, so I can’t even get on it. I have a bunch of errands to run today and would love to put the kids in the stroller and walk, but it’s snowing! Oh, and the battery for my scale is officially dead, so I can’t even weigh in on any of my challenges.

Okay… so now that those are all of my problems, what am I going to do about it?

I can’t really do much about the waking up thing, but I think that until it stops, I will just have to discipline myself and make sure that I am in bed before 10.

My body hurts… I tentatively have a massage booked for this week. I think I’ll call Stacey and see if she can take the kids after Mom N Me tomorrow. If she can, I’ll go for my massage and pedi then.

Clearing off the treadmill is going to take some work and some organization. I think that I will work on it today while the kids are napping, if I can get them to nap at the same time today. That will be two things done at once! My office will get cleaned and then I can get on my treadmill tonight.

I can’t do anything about the snow, either, but I still need to go do my errands. Maybe I will bring the stroller anyhow and just do an extra lap around our itty bitty teeny mall.

I put the battery on my list, so hopefully I will remember it today!

One of my friends just had her baby a couple of weeks ago and her husband is driving me crazy. Before we both got pregnant, we were trying to lose weight together. Now that she’s had her baby, he keeps giving me deadlines as to when we are to be losing this weight. I just want to smack him sometimes. He says things like ” In 4 weeks, I want to see the schedule that the two of you are going to do to get together and workout.” Sure! I’d love to be able to do that, but I have 2 kids, and a husband that works full time. How am I going to do that? I am trying my best to just get on the treadmill at my own house every day. Who is going to watch my kids? Is he? Will he bring his newborn over to my house and babysit all three of them so that his wife and I can go work out? If he will, Great! I can’t ask my husband to do that right now, he has way too many other commitments with his free time. Anyhow, it’s one thing to be supportive and encouraging, and another to be pushy and annoying.

Like I said, my emotions are a bit out of whack, so I’m sure I am overreacting!

Okay… time to go get my day started~

I weighed in this morning at 190.2lbs. I haven’t lost anything from last week and I know why. I haven’t given losing weight the time and attention that I should have. I ate poorly, I didn’t exercise and that’s that. Now, on to a new week and trying again.

I look at my body every day and I am extremely unhappy with it. Today is Valentine’s Day and I don’t even want my dh to see me undressed. I deplore the way my stomach hangs into my leg area. It just shouldn’t do that. I hate that it touches my lap as I sit down. My lap is a resting spot for my kids, not my stomach, but my stomach doesn’t realize this.

My daughter loves to climb on the treadmill with me. I don’t know when I am going to get on there without her. I don’t want to get up earlier in the morning because I am already surviving on a minimal amount of sleep, but I just might have to do that. It shouldn’t be too bad and it will get me used to getting up earlier for work, although that isn’t until August.

I’d like to go back to work with a whole new professional and great looking wardrobe. In order to do that, I really need to put in more effort than I have been . I am not very good at denying myself, nor for making time to exercise and I need to improve on both. I don’t know how I am going to do that, but I have to figure it out, and soon!

And to top everything else off, I think I have a cold. Ugh.

It’s really motivating to be part of the teams on the forum. I want to do well, I want my team to be proud of me and I love the pats on the back when I have succeeded. There’s been multiple times that I have made a better choice than I normally would have because I know I will be accountable for those choices to someone. And besides, I want our team to win the 500lb challenge!

Now, I just need to get my butt on the treadmill every day. I did well, I went on twice this week, but I skipped yesterday. I did go outside and go for a walk with a friend, with my 14lb son strapped to my chest, so that counts for something, but I still should have gone on the treadmill. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit and I want this to become a habit for me.

I just got a phone call which will lead me to more walking. I forgot that I agreed to canvass for the heart and stroke foundation this year. I’ll have a route and a time in which to get it done and that’s that. I won’t be able to skip my exercises anymore.

Once again, I’ve started doing the one thing that works for me with sweets. I’ve really wanted a piece of cheesecake for the last few days. Since I was invited out to dinner last night, I brought a cheesecake with me, had a small slice and left the rest behind. I like doing this because it helps me satisfy my craving without going nuts and eating the whole cake. And when that second piece kept calling my name, I just thought of my Valentine’s day challenge and walked away!

I have a lot of cleaning to do today before my husband comes home from his conference. I want the house to look good for him. That will probably mean strapping baby on and lots and lots of exercise. The calories burned feature is neat because it reminded me that my cleaning today IS exercise and it will count towards my weight loss. I also have to manage to get in 400 squats between now and Tuesday. Um… I can’t even remember HOW to do a squat. Thank goodness for the internet!

Today will be a good day and next week my scale will show me the rewards of all my hard work

Who knew that buddyslim was so exciting? I just weighed in, happy that I had lost a couple more pounds and up popped a little message saying I earned a white star. I feel like I am in kindergarden again and you know what? This is just as exciting as getting stickers was then

I joined a few weight loss challenges on the Forums and I am pretty excited. I am competitive, so this will help me stay focused. It also helps me when I go to have something I really shouldn’t. I think about my challenge and my commitment before having the sweet. Or, I have a very small portion of the sweets.

Last night I went to a Partylight home party and I did pretty well with the snackies. Okay, my friend made the most delicious hot spinach dip that I have ever tasted and I’m sure I ate half the bowl, but I passed on the chips. I had some of the fruit platter, too. I also had a late lunch because I knew I’d be going to the party and wouldn’t be able to pass on her spinach dip… evil friend!

This morning, once Kaleigh gets in the tub, I’m going to get on the treadmill. I have to go on there when she is otherwise occupied or else she has a major meltdown because she wants to walk with Mommy. Actually, I might just get on it now since she’s busy watching Sid the science kid.

I had a huge fight with my husband this morning before he went to work. My kids and I got ready and went to Mom n Me and while we were there some of the girls and I were discussing the issues that brought on the fight. Of course this got me all upset inside, again, and so instead of having the decent healthy lunch I had planned, I had one of the girls over for Kentucky Fried Chicken. Not only did it blow my budget (holy stink it’s expensive!), it also was one of the worst things I could eat while trying to lose weight.

I don’t know why I do this. Whenever I get in a fight, or get upset, I look to food for comfort. Like somehow satisfying my taste buds will satisfy the other parts of my life, too. It’s not that I have a bad life, I have a wonderful life, but whenever it goes a little south, I reach for food. Sometimes I wish I had another “out”, like exercise or something but with two kids under two, it’s hard to find the time for any other out.

And truthfully, it doesn’t make me feel better. After I eat, I just have guilt to add to all of the other ugly feelings I was having.

On a good note, my husband and I decided to seek help, so maybe I’ll be reaching for that bad food less often!

I was out of town last week and it didn’t help much. I ate out a lot, didn’t exercise and just spent the time visiting. I did go on the treadmill last night, though, even though I was exhausted.

I’m trying to find my buddies blogs to read how they are doing, but I can’t figure out how to do that! So, if any of you stop by, know that I am thinking about you.

Baby’s crying… must run… again.

I haven’t started yet. I keep going to start and then I just don’t. No excuses, I just don’t choose a healthy food. I’ve been practicing making a Dora cake for my daughters birthday so I have tubs of icing laying around. While I am in the middle of making myself a nice healthy lunch or breakfast, I “taste” the icing. Not good. And, there are tempting treats everywhere. Right now, there is a huge chocolate bar right in front of me; it’s my husband’s. I know I should put it away or just ignore it, but my illogical side says “if you eat it, it won’t be there to tempt you anymore. No sense in wasting food!” I’ve asked my husband to take things like that to his school and he hasn’t.

We have a treadmill that I would love to use but can’t. We are trying to clean up our home and the treadmill is blocked in by some of our stuff. We have it in the office, and it is in the corner, folded up, blocked in my a bed and the computer desk. My husband said that if I can wait until the weekend, it would be ready for me to use again. I think I just have to learn to mud and tape and then I will get it sooner. (We have to finish patching and painting a wall where the computer desk normally goes).

I’m trying to drink a lot. I think part of the reason I am giving in so easily is that I am thirsty and my hands aren’t busy. I think if I go and have something to drink every time I have a craving, it will really help. And, I don’t think I’m ready to have little sweets here and there. I just have to say NO completely for right now. It will be hard, but I have to do it. Maybe once I start seeing some progress, then I will let myself indulge every now and again. I don’t want to give up sweets forever and I know I can’t do that, but I need to do something now.

My back is just so sore and I know it’s because of the extra weight. I want to be healthier and I want to look HOT!

In the past I have had the most success with little changes. I think I need to try and lose weight intentionally this time. I am going to try and keep a food journal, too. I’ve tried before and hated it, but maybe this time it will work. I will give it a month and then reevaluate.

Of course, my husband said to me last night that he has lost all of his Christmas weight. While he is much heavier now that when we got married, he loses weight so easily and it’s infuriating. It’s especially upsetting that he loses weight while still eating whatever he wants and I don’t really see him spending any extra time exercising. I’m just tired of clothes that don’t fit, a stomach that rests on my legs when I sit, and just the overall tired feeling I have. I know some of it is because my baby is only 2 months old, but still, I can’t use that as an excuse because it’s been like this for years.

I am struggling and I haven’t even started. Sigh…

I had it all planned to start today and I started out okay. I was running late and really wanted to stop by A&W for a breakfast sandwich, but I held out and ate my apple and cheese as I drove. Then, I was going to stop and get a grilled chicken for lunch, but I just wanted to rush and get my errands done and go get my daughter from the sitter’s so I skipped lunch. I came home ate two yogurts, and snuck a hazelnut chocolate bar. I’m making dinner now, Chicken Cannelloni, from a package because I just don’t have the energy to make a real dinner.

Now, I realize I needed to have a better strategy. I will have to act like I am pregnant again and keep healthy snacks on me at all times. This way, I won’t give in to temptation and have something I shouldn’t. It shouldn’t be too hard to do, it will just take some planning. As for dinners, I’m going to start planning ahead for those, too. I went to M&M meats today and bought a box of chicken breasts. I’m going to bake them tonight, then slice and freeze them. Then I will have chicken breast on hand for when I need something quick and easy.

With us trying to watch our finances, I have the urge to wait until all of the unhealthy food is out of the house before starting my diet. I think a better choice would be to finish the foods and as I go, replace them with foods from my core list. I figure that if I am only doing the Core program for 75% of my choices, 75% is way better than 0%. And, soon enough, it will all be items from my Core list.

I’m pretty excited about this program because it shouldn’t affect the way my family eats too much. It’s just about replacing unhealthy choices with healthier ones. I’m really lucky that my daughter eats so well. Looking through the list, it’s already packed with many of her favorites. And as for my husband, he will eat it if I make it and if he wants treats, he will just get those for himself. We don’t like the same treats so I’m not too tempted by what he eats. And, with the Core program, if I get hungry, I can still have something. I like that better than when I was counting points. I think I won’t feel the need to cheat as much because I don’t feel like I am being deprived.

So, if anyone out there has any ideas for strategies, especially on eating well while being busy, I’d love to hear them. Just to give a bit of background, I am a stay at home mom (for the year at least, I normally teach middle school), I have two children, one is 2 months old and the other will be 2 next month. We are very busy during the day, usually spending a good portion of the day away. I’d like to have suppers ready for my husband but only manage to get that done once or twice a week. I rely heavily on prepackaged foods (like sidekicks) and I like to cheat when cooking. I will take something packaged and add to it to make it tastier. I’m a Pampered Chef consultant so it’s really ironic that I don’t spend more time cooking, but I just don’t feel like I have the time. I also have a tiny kitchen so making anything is always a hassle.

Here’s hoping I’ll do better tonight and tomorrow!